Thursday, October 6, 2011

the blood that fills my soul

so here's how my heart has been working recently:  it takes in blood, drowns every square inch...and then the blood gushes out to all parts of the body - keeping me alive.  and it does it again.  and again.  and again.  and again.  and I never run out of blood.  or oxygen.  or air.  or peace.  maybe not peace.  i feel it now, but lately, it has been absent.  i have run out of peace - once.  or twice.  or maybe three times, because that's a charm.  but never blood.  or oxygen.  or air.  except that one time.  in the pool.  a long time ago.  when i was little.  i was having a contest with my sisters, seeing who could hold their breath the longest.  i was the youngest.  i lost.  but i have never been so happy to breathe again in my life.  peace is like that.  when it doesn't reveal itself, i kind of feel like i have run out of air - of oxygen.  and when it finally breaks through and fills my soul, it gushes outward and i have never been so happy to feel it.

peace.

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